Hello Again

So it is coming to an end. I only have this week left to get through. But I think with the ending of this it’s almost as if I am a baby about to learn how to eat again. Learn what it’s like to have real whole food.  After mainly a whole month without it, there is something strangely exciting about eating. Not only because I have missed my food but because during this time I have tried many new foods and wonder what my eating habits will be like once I can eat again. Will I snack as much? Will I eat as much at each meal? All of the what if’s are getting into my mind and making me super curious.

Last night was hard. There was no reason for it to be hard. It just was. I wanted food and am getting tired of not being able to eat. I just want food. I think it would be easier if I was actually not able to eat, like if I had some disease where I wasn’t allowed too. That would make this way easier but then again I would probably never get to eat again after that so maybe not.

Always Snacking

October first came as a bit of a surprise to me. I had been writing up my proposal for my rice eating adventure. However, I still hadn’t put that much thought in to it. At least not as much thought as I would have like walking into a month of only rice. I should have had a plan, with saying that I don’t mean I wasn’t prepared because I was fairly prepared just not in the right way. I was physically prepared, as in my fridge had the right kind of food in it and ready for me to eat, but I wasn’t as mentally ready, as I should have been. I hadn’t thought it through and done enough research to feel prepared and really know what I was getting myself into. But thankfully I can come up with reasons and thoughts about this adventure fairly quick when asked ‘what I was doing and why I was doing it’. Now with only 10 days left, I know exactly what I need to say to people when asked about my rice. But with saying all that, I do feel like I have learned things.
Firstly, I would NEVER give up my food again (now, that I have said that I probably will at some point). Anyways, the amount of food people in third world countries eat is actually a lot of food. It is plenty for me to eat. But we, as in North America, eat so much and are always snacking. Food is a must with everything we do. It’s kind of like we find food we want to eat then plan our events around the food. To me now, that is very sad. Not everything needs food; we don’t need to always be eating.
Secondly, my family and I have actually saved quite a bit of money with only buying the little food I need and the amount of food my parents need to eat. Our fridge is not as full and neither are any of our cupboards. This is a good life style change and it’s actually possible. Before this I would have never thought I can go without eating after school, between classes and whenever I am bored.  But now I know I can. I know I can live off of only three meals a day and they don’t have to be crazy big meals either. They are smaller amounts than I would normally eat but still healthy and satisfying.
I have been eating other peoples meals for 19 days now and can now understand why we shouldn’t waste food. After eating the same food over and over again, it can get fairly boring. When we waste food, it is like telling someone in a different place that we are better than them and have the right because of where we live or who’s family we are in that we don’t have to finish. But honestly, we should always finish our meals because you never know when something might happen where it could be your last real meal.

The Movies

Saturday and Sunday were both easy days. I just sat at home hanging with my brother, watching movies and doing homework. I wasn’t hungry but that’s probably because I was busy thinking about other things. But I did get a lot of homework done thankfully.

Many people have told me that the first few days of fasting are very hard but after you get past that it’s not bad at all. I am guessing it is the same for me and giving up most of my food but rice. After the first week was over, I was fine. My body has adjusted and no hunger pains. For that reason I think I would probably be very good at fasting since my body had an aright time adjusting for this.

The rest of this week has also been very easy. It’s as if I have been doing this my whole life. Like its normal the amount I am eating. However, for me normally it is not. But I guess my body has just made the changes it needs so that I will survive. Many people also have told me that I lost weigh but frankly I don’t think so we will find out at the end when I weigh myself again what has actually happened in my body over this past month.
I have started a count down. There are only 10 days left. Since I had already planned to go to Saskatoon and visit a friend or two. This means I will be taking Friday lunch through Saturday lunch off.  It will be a nice break to get me through the last 9 days. I am getting more and more excited every day for November 1. I have big plans for that day, it will be great.

Brittany

Again yesterday I had to be at school by 7:15 for a secret project with my good friend, Lody. So, I missed breaky but frankly I wasn’t hungry. I wasn’t even cold, which is normally how I can tell that I am hungry even when my body isn’t telling me I am hungry. So, I got up and went to school. By lunch I still wasn’t hungry but did eat a little. My toes were cold but only because I was in flip flops and it was cold outside.
A teacher came around giving cookies to the ‘Green Team’ at my school. I just so happen to be on the green team, so I took my cookie. But I didn’t eat it. I gave it to my dear friend Brittany who is in psychology with me. She’s pretty cool and loves cookies.

Beginner Baker

Today, I came home from school and decided I was going to bake cookies. A good friend of mine and I started writing notes to each high school teacher this morning, tomorrow morning we will put the note on the teacher’s desk. And now we will put the note on the desk with one or two cookies!! Just because we love our teacher’s at Regina Christian School that much J

I love cookies but I love cookie dough even more. But I can’t and won’t eat it. I am not allowed to eat if for another 18 days. WOW! Only 18 days, time sure does go by fast. I won’t know if my cookies are even good but really it doesn’t matter if they taste good because that’s not why I made them. I made chocolate chip cookies because I want my teachers to know that what they are doing is amazing. Frankly, I wouldn’t normally want to teach my class but they just keep coming back. The second sheet of cookies are in the oven now. They are kind of flat but that’s okay. I’m a beginner baker!

I am still not hungry. I haven’t been hungry for the past few days. I missed lunch yesterday but that didn’t seem to affect me. Then I missed breakfast today because I had to be at school very earlier. But yet I am still not hungry. It is strange really. But I guess my body is alright with the change I have brought.

Lunch Maybe

I wasn’t hungry on Monday and now Tuesday I am still not hungry. I am wondering why my next hungry pain starts. Frankly I would love if I didn’t feel any more hungry pains but it does worry me a little that I am not hungry at all. I am not hungry or thirst, is my body just understanding what is happening? Or is there something more going on inside me? I would really love any answer from my body but how to get that answer is a bit more difficult.

I didn’t eat breakfast this morning but I did make rice just in case I was hungry by lunch, however I am not feeling hungry at all. I don’t think I will be hungry by lunch but I will eat a little just to keep my body working and warm.

Thanksgiving

My family went out to our cabin this Saturday morning. Once we got out there I realized how freezing cold of a weekend it is going to be. I did pack some warm clothing but with my thin blood it wasn’t enough. I was freezing cold, so I let myself drink tea, I know I said only water but I didn’t want to get sick so I need to stay warm.
Thanksgiving is a special time of year, where families come together and have a wonderful meal together being thankful for everything that has happened that year. I love thanksgiving and getting together with friends and family and eating some of the best food I’ll have all year long. Once I actually started to think about it. I realize I wouldn’t be overly thankful or friendly to people on Sunday (at Arlington the Thanksgiving Banquet was on Sunday night). I would be eating rice and my stir fry while watching 250 other people eating stuffing, pumpkin pie, and all kinds of salads plus turkey. It was a tough decision but I decided that I would be able to eat all day on Sunday.

It was a wonderful day, I got up and had cheerio’s, bacon, milk, coffee, chips, cake and grilled cheese all before supper came. I was mainly eating all day long. But after the kind of week I had I figured I needed a day off and what better day than Thanksgiving.  I really enjoyed having a day off and it help me realize how much I love food and how badly I actually missed food.

Today I am back on food but i haven’t been overly hungry yet. It’s possible I eat too much on Sunday that I would be super hungry for a few days which is totally fine by me. The hungry pains aren’t fun so if they don’t want to come back that’d be great but I am sure the hungry pains will but if its just not for a few days that totally works too.